Princess Diaries

I miss u so much

2011-10-26T08:55:00.000-07:00

Dear folks,

I miss his presence. For myself, education is important for future..and for someone special..I have to say this I love him forever, my dear Ari Yuli Wahyu Hartanto. And a piece of advice for myself (yeaah sounds funny) never get lovesick. Alright, I'm talking gibberish.haha. Seriously speaking there is nothing wrong to fall in love and get into relationship if you know that you have found a right person.

May Allah bless and guide us,Amin.

Remember this: The past is not the way to future.

You don't know what is stored for you in the future if you keep looking behind.

Goodnight dear

Love Aishah

Hari Raya 2011

2011-09-04T03:30:00.000-07:00

These are some photos which were snapped recently :D

To give a brief summary, yesterday I had an open house at Mr Zainol Abidin's residence.

My Favourite and only VANILLA!!

One of my niece, Atheela :)

Sending Kala Ha's back to Australia Melbourne .

On one of the Singapore Flyer's cabin.

I'm gonna have a good rest for my eyesight tonight. And I miss you dear.

Happy working tomorrow.

Love

Aishah

Busy Busy Busy

2011-07-04T02:45:00.000-07:00

Everyone is so busy. Preparing for lesson. Good luck for your tournament. I need a holiday, mum. I need sometime to be alone and for myself. Thanks Mr Fudge for you entries. I'm lovin' it.

Love

Aishah

Djarum Badminton Audition 2011

2011-07-01T09:00:00.000-07:00

Al-Fatihah to my late uncle: Allahyarham Abdul Majid Bin Jamaludin.

Love
Aishah

The Significant Other

2011-06-26T12:05:00.000-07:00

26 Jun 2011

I once had a pretty interesting discussion with Siti Aishah on why some relationships are doomed to fail.

Alright… you might have seen some photos me and my partner. Well, I guess it’s time for me to introduce him to all of you.

(03 Jan 2010) :)

His name is Ari Yuli Wahyu Hartanto.

He’s 26 years old. Let me come clean guys. He was a former Indonesia badminton player and currently coaching at Djarum Kudus Badminton Club- Research shows that it’s one of the prestigious clubs in Indonesia.

Well, as a national and world player… it’s understandable that women will chase and trying to get closer. Regardless of any reasons, there must be a fine line between being too close and far apart. To sum up, you need to know your limit. Celebrities are involved there which a no surprise is for me.

Our relationship, Alhamdullilah has been going strong coming to 4 years this 4^th August, Insyaallah. J Despite in our differences in nationalities we do have things in common. We shared the same language- English and Malay, we are Muslim, loves watching movies, supporting Inter Milan, loves Durian and Mango (I prefer Honey Dew and Oranges heeeh), fishing (for him and as for me, eating the fish heeh)..With the best of my knowledge I know we have more things in common.

Well, simply put, I do know that I should take this relationship slow and steady, and not to lose sight of the big picture. At the end of the day, I still do have my studies to worry about as for him, his coaching career. Like it or not, I can’t afford to screw it up…not when I've spent 13 years investing in my education.

Every couple wants the best in their relationship. I've never been into relationship before so I’m not an expert. If you step with the wrong foot, you will fall.

That said, please make use of the technology SKYPE and I’m pretty sure our relationship would be better. Can you please make an effort to webcam… Forgive me to have force u.

Last but not least, is it hard to confess the truth? Nothing can be hidden away from Allah’s sight. HE is the Greatest.

Goodnight dear...

Love

Aishah

Shadows of a Time Remembered

2011-06-22T02:11:00.000-07:00

22 June 2011

As I post this entry, the clock on my laptop reads 2:30 PM. 5 more days before 27 June. Its going to be 6 months the last time I met my love in Singapore Changi Airport. I supposed it’s time to reflect on how I’ve been living for the past 20 years.

Nothing much changes. Academic wise, I still have few steps to climb to get a degree; with few options. All I need is 4 years (hopefully 2.5 years for advance standing). I should ask myself what kind of degree I would like to get. Honours Degree? Just a Degree with lousy grades? 1^st Class or 2^nd Class Upper Degree? They are going to write an appeal letter for me to enter NTU, Insyaallah hopefully it’s going to be successful. But of course, I shouldn't be complaining too loudly. After all, my CAP isn’t fantastic and I graduated with an only a Diploma. If I were ever to retake a Diploma, I’ll make sure to attain Diploma in XXX(other than Chemical Engineering) with Merit.

As for the man…I have been with him for almost 4 yearsJ Truth is…It’s my first relationship in my life. I have never been in relationship. No man has ever been able to steal my heart. Though, I don’t really see what’s so good about it that anyone would want to steal it.

The person whom I thought was THE man, still living in his past…

And I’ll admit it: my heart took a bit of a pounding what I gazed upon their Friendster,facebook, HP’s contact,Outgoing calls especially their profile as well as the photo they took together. It’s all there for me to see: the words ‘walaupun kita sudah putus, I will always stand by you’ (she will never forget his birthday, celebrating in the swimming pool, Nova updated him about her father death. Well, as much as I’ve gotten over his past and trying to let go of him, a part of me still does have feelings for him.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I’m jealous of your past girls or anything. If anything, the girls seem to be a beautiful, lovely and really nice women, and I’m sure that they’ll take good care of you. The previous 5 have won your heart, its sort of the best man wins and I guess in this case, those girls were the better women. I hope you do understand why I do still have some fond feelings for you.

I just hope that you have indeed found your happiness….and that I will be able to find my own happiness someday.

It’s not that I’m in a rush to get married with a former athlete/coach. I first know him as a normal-next-door guy (not athlete)…

I don’t find long distance relationship as a problem or hassle.

Rather, as much as I’m a loner, most of the time it can be hard on me to walk this path alone.

Without someone to share my joy with when I’m happy and without someone to share my sorrow when I’m not. I feel empty. I feel…incomplete.

Well, here I am feeling that.. There are other girls or his past in his heart and he is sharing it with me. I am getting all whiny and weepy once again. Its comforting and tearing me apart. I’m not trying to rant here, and do forgive me if I seem to be doing so. It’s just natural for everyone to want more out of his life, no matter how fulfilling it may seem to be.

What I can spare for myself… I hardly know what the future has in store for me. But I can’t really see what’s ahead of me either, if I keep looking back.

Come what may, I won’t be afraid to face it. I won’t.

Love AIshah

16 June 2011

2011-06-16T01:02:00.000-07:00

(Taken 2009 with my niece, Atheela :))

My adrenaline is moving through my veins. I can't wait to start swimming. Couple of things are running through my head..

Love

Aishah

2011-06-08T20:51:00.000-07:00

Sayang... before ur birthday saya ada buat sesuatu tentang foto kita. Saya ada edit foto kita pakai Adobe Photoshop... Dan hasilnya seperti ini.

And just now saya baru cetak fotonya n saya kasih bingkai foto.. Actually saya mahu kasih ini foto waktu saya ke S'pore to celebrate ur birthday sayang... but i can't. im sorry..

And now fotonya itu ada di samping ranjang saya, so if im wake up in the morning i can see ur smile n happines..

I Love U So Much Dear...
M. Ari Yuli Wahyu Hartanto

My Birthday Cake Photo!

2011-06-08T02:08:00.001-07:00

My 20th birthday and (top) my aunt's wedding.

My 'kimono' long dress need some alteration...All photos uploaded have never been photoshop :D

I love u Wahyu..:)

Love

Aishah

Graduation Day!

2011-05-31T22:34:00.000-07:00

Alhamdullilah I've recently graduated from Temasek Polytechnic with Diploma in Chemical Engineering. I wanted to further my education but financial has always been the issue. I need to work hard to achieve what I want. Almost sending in my application to University of Manchester which is currently ranked 9th or 7th in the world better than NUS. I dont see myself waiting for 10 more years to just secure a seat in Nanyang University of Technology or National University of Singapore. I need to get on my feet at looking ahead for my future (which Ive been doing).

Please dont talk about marriage (Mom/Dad/Cousins/Friends..). Im open to decision but please dont decide and force me. Insyaallah, I hope Allah will guide me

Allah will decided and HE knows best. Marriage is a rare and very special moment. Talk about it both couples are fully prepared. Only time matters.

I feel like a hanging pendulum moving freely and going no where. Im not going to allow it to happen.

Love

Aishah :)

I miss u..

2011-05-05T12:30:00.000-07:00

NPCC

2011-05-05T12:29:00.001-07:00

NPCC campfire 2011

06 May 2011

2011-05-05T11:48:00.000-07:00

Dear ...

7th May 2011 will be the polling day. Eligible Singapore citizens are out to cast their votes. Im still young to vote. Its 0250 and my eyes are still wide open. I had a great time watching the Royal Wedding of Prince Charles and Kate Middleton. Yes they are British.

My point is that,well I have neither been looking great nor concern about my look/appearance. Starting from tomorrow, Im going to be more firm on myself. My daily regime (1) Eat good & healthy food to multiply more intelligent brain cells
(2) Maintain my fitness level
(3) Be myself
In my point of view, I believe I have to make my effort to have the end results in a long run. Meaning, urghh using sunblock (as recommended by dermatologist)and be myself.

Simultaneously, Im very worried my dear (M.Ari Yuli Wahyu Hartanto) as he doesnt seem well. His young players were ousted..

Im going to have an extremely long day tomorrow.

Thanks dear for my birthday celebrations in Indonesia. I enjoyed and I felt the fun u guys had :)

Goodnight dear..
Love Aishah

2011-04-27T07:12:00.001-07:00

Sayang… im sorry kalau waktu Birthday sayang saya tidak bisa datang ke s’pore. I know pasti sayang kecewa, but thanks a lot kerana sudah mengerti keadaan saya.

Sayang.. ini saya ada sedikit surprise from “ The A Team “… itu nama panggilan untuk team saya hee.. We celebrate ur birthday sayang:) .

Acaranya itu mereka fishing then ada makan2 juga, dan terakhir kita ada kue ulang tahun buat sayang. Mereka yang tiup lilinnya, dan mereka mendo’akan yang terbaik buat sayang:) . Tapi maaf sayang, tiada kue yang tersisa buat sayang kerana mereka habiskan semuanya (dasar rakus) hahaha… saya aja tidak dapat kuenya (hiks hiks..).

Untuk acara makan2nya mereka makan hasil tangkapan ikannya. Sayang tahu mereka dapat berapa ikan? 32 ikan… wuihhhhhhh banyak kan??hee.. dan mereka habiskan semua ikannya itu… busyeeeeetttt…lol. Asal sayang tau anak didik saya kemarin yang ikut ada 10 orang, berarti sayang pasti tahu kira2 mereka makan berapa ikan per orang. Itu masih tambah nasi + minum + kue.

2011-04-27T07:10:00.001-07:00

We Love u sayang... Happy birthday Dear :)

M. Ari Yuli Wahyu Hartanto & The A Team

2011-04-27T06:40:00.000-07:00

Sayang... saya ucapkan Happy Birthday to u... Semoga sayang sukses dalam school dengan nilai yang baik,tambah cantik, rajin beribadah dan tambah sayang+cinta sama saya:), selalu dalam lindungan Allah SWT.

Anak didik saya juga ikut mengucapkan "Happy Birthday kak Aishah... Wish u all the best:)

Cuma ini yang bisa saya lakukan untuk rayakan birthday sayang, mungkin tidak seberapa tapi saya ikhlas sayang.

Salam dari anak didik saya untuk sayang..

From ur Love:
Ari Yuli Wahyu Hartanto

Indoor sport shoes

2011-03-14T10:14:00.000-07:00

Dear...

I miss u so much.i dont know whether to smile or cry thinking of u :)

I love u my lovely dear

I love u

2011-02-04T01:48:00.000-08:00

Just a random thoughts for today. BBQ and my beloved best friends :)

Love Aishah

aussie :)

2011-01-26T02:50:00.000-08:00

3 more papers to go.
I know im gonna miss him. let make use of this moments to straighten things up. No more arguing :) im so happy!
I have nothing else to say :'(

I will always pray the best for us.
Get well soon dear, Im going to miss u

Love
Aishah

2011-01-20T23:17:00.000-08:00

buat saya cinta tidak mengenal hutang, cinta tidak mengaharapkan imbalan.

semua yang saya lakukan itu ikhlas.

i just want to make u happy.

i will always love u

m. ari yuli wahyu hartanto

2011-01-05T14:55:00.000-08:00

Sayang...
I want to see u soon.
I miss n love u so much
Jaga kesehatan n jaga diri baik-baik ya sayang.

M. Ari Yuli Wahyu Hartanto

Holiday !!

2011-01-04T07:47:00.001-08:00

Thanks for ur time to come Singapore..

Im grateful for every second I have with u..

Love

Aishah

Sayang..welcome to Singapore

2010-12-25T09:31:00.000-08:00

I'll see u tmr love.. I miss u

Goodnight dear

Love

Aishah

sayang..

2010-12-20T07:25:00.001-08:00

maaf kalau sudah buat sayang menyesal pacaran sama saya. saya memang bukan cowok yang baik.

i love u

m.ari yuli wahyu hartanto

2010-11-28T20:06:00.000-08:00

i love u

m.ari yuli wahyu hartanto

new home for men's coach

2010-11-24T06:24:00.000-08:00

Ini tempat tinggal saya yang baru sayang. Disini ada 3 kamar, 1 kamar untuk satu pelatih.

Saya mau sayang jangan lupakan sholat meskipun sayang sibuk atau capek:).

Sayang,..kamu sangat cantik di foto itu.

Terakhir...saya mau bilang, saya cuma manusia biasa yang banyak salah dan kekurangan.

I Love u
M. Ari Yuli Wahyu H.

Britney Spears

2010-11-23T18:22:00.000-08:00

I wanna get a new Britney Spears album! :DD

Do you know that the swiss consume an average 12 kg of chocolate in a year?

23 Nov 10 Archives

2010-11-23T08:42:00.001-08:00

These are my archives photos. Just a random entry

G'nite love

Love

Aishah

Test

2010-11-22T08:52:00.000-08:00

Im going to miss my swimming lesson again:((
2 tests coming up this week.. GMP and MNT. I have to get myself prepared before its too late.

Sayang..

I wish u would come to singapore. again.. im waiting for that moment
miss me while im still alive..
Im dishearten when u always tell ur parents the bad side about me..
U dont know how much I endure these 3 years.. of our long-distance r/ship. u never appreciate my sincerity and trust.. I have never ONCE betrayed or cheated u neither flirting..

:'( crystal drops falling from my eyes are the gifts from u to me ......

I need ur sincerity and blessing from our parents ..

Amin

gnite and have a tight sleep..
Love
Aishah

Project

2010-11-18T09:38:00.001-08:00

Flooded with school projects. I better sleep now. Ya Allah, please make me awake tomorrow morning as I need to perform subuh prayers. Please guide me and protect us. Amin

Had my PMT lecture quiz. Application questions, so have to brainstorming..I miss my swimming, running, my darling ana ivanovic, britney spears. melbourne not till..... ..I miss training..my skin is very dry..

I have to keep looking foward. What is done can never be erased.

Netball tournaments.

-PMT Lab

-GMP Presentations

-GMP PBL

-Next Fri MNT Test

-Resume, Cover Letters

Smooth sea doesnt make skillful sailors..

g'nite love :(

Love

Aishah

transformation....

2010-11-13T19:56:00.000-08:00

Sayang....this is my newest vixion motor sightings.
and now I'm ready to take you around Indonesia :)
I Love u Forever..

M. Ari Yuli Wahyu Hartanto

Desktop Wallpaper

2010-11-09T18:54:00.000-08:00

Beautiful sight...

Love

Aishah

To my Dearest. :'(

2010-11-08T06:59:00.000-08:00

Have a good sleep, Gnite..

Love

Aishah

Malacca Trip, 5 Nov 10

2010-11-08T06:34:00.000-08:00

I had enough crying. Its bleeding. Life has to go on. I wish I could be like a cinderella with a happy ending.

I leave it to fate. Just pray and do'a. Im speechless, my heart really aches. Let me study hard..for my family and future. I swear.. it really hurts.

I leave it to God..

Love

Aishah

Malacca Trip, 5 Nov 10

2010-11-07T18:20:00.000-08:00

Flying to Indonesia with Lion Air hee..

2010-10-31T07:31:00.000-07:00

Major Project

2010-10-25T07:51:00.000-07:00

Im gonna complete my report in 1 hour time. Just the last 2 sections and Im done.

A trip to Melbourne not till im done with school :)

Love

Aishah

Major Report

2010-10-23T03:07:00.000-07:00

Lets do a checklist.

√ SIP Logbook

√ SIP Report (4000 words)

So Im left with Major Project Report Logbook and MP Report maximum 40 pages! Im continuing from the last time I did.

I need to struggle and scarifies a bit more. The deadline is on Mon, 25th October 2010 by 5pm. No plans to sleep tonight. I need caffeine to keep me awake!

Had a long talk with my mum last night. Lots of things running through my head. I should know my responsibility as a daughter and student. So she talked about life after death .

I wish my dear's players can make it through to the finals. Have a safe journey dear :)

Back to school work.

Love

Aishah

End of Internship in Lonza Biologics

2010-10-17T10:20:00.000-07:00

Lat Friday was my last of internship in Lonza Biologics Tuas. All the best for his players.
I have a lot of things to do and Im dozing off anytime soon.

Goodnight dear

Love Aishah

The Chronicles of Narnia: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader

2010-10-04T09:19:00.000-07:00

Dear...

Did I lose my love to someone better. And does she loves you like I do.

' Sorry" is always been easy to say. Smallest mistake, the impact is really great.

I will never get into relationship again. Having 1 serious relationship is enough. The pain is there. Life has to move on and the time will never stop running.

Maybe I too concern and care about him. I have no right to talk more about this. I leave it to God.

All the best for the tournament at Surabaya.

My colleagues & interns in Lonza Biologics with Mariana our analyst :)

Love
Aishah

20 Sep 10

2010-09-20T07:19:00.000-07:00

I had been experiencing ear infection. Its pretty awful the pain. Today, as usual paperwork (Data Trending). Yesterday I was elated! He said that he might be coming Singapore. I really look forward for that. Its not confirm tho :(

Im sooooo happy!! :) I miss him.

What I need to accomplish today is my SIP logbook reflection. Each day when I do self reflection, I learn moral values. Im waiting for him to finish coaching before we can doze off.:)

Yea..Melbourne! :D

Love Aishah

31 Aug 10

2010-08-31T03:40:00.000-07:00

My best buddy, Khai :D I miss her..

One of my colleagues ride us home. Had match last night at RP. I have a lot of things to sort out..my SIP logbook, SIP report..major project log book and its report. I planned to start tomorrow. I have a lot of things to do in order to stay in great shape.

" Against Americans, Jabez steals the show"

Love Aishah

Filter Water

2010-08-27T22:05:00.000-07:00

My mum plans to buy a filtered dispense water. Im browsing through the different types of them. I need to consider the budget, service it provides and the specification of the water.

Last night, my colleagues and I went to Pastamania @ Plaza Singapura to break fast. I have a curfew and need to reach home, latest 10pm and I didnt manage to solat yesterday as i was...not at home. Well, in the office yesterday, I read articles on beauty how to keep skin youthful.. Something caught my eye.. reduce stress, have a good diet, sleep and wake up everyday on the same time.

Today nothing much, just relaxing at home and doing some readings.

Schedule for next week,

Mon, 30 Aug 10: Friendly match with RP@1930.

Sat & Sun: Tuition.

My shoulder is aching. And I prefer him to come singapore during these blissful month of Ramadhan. The feeling is so ..only God knows.

Love

Aishah

2010-08-22T09:44:00.000-07:00

Alhamdullillah, i manage to go terawih again today :)

I know im being very mean. When I think again, how long can I be like this? What gonna happen if it continues this way? I need to spare some thoughts for myself and others. I hate blogging about unnecessary stuffs like this. Oh dear...

I know my dear loves fishing and Ive never stop him. But Im worried as he's still unwell.

I need time to cool down things. I take each thing as a test from God.

Love

Aishah

2010-08-16T08:13:00.000-07:00

"A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor. "

2010-08-11T12:02:00.000-07:00

Today I got MC for 2 Days due to sore throat. I planned to go out tomorrow with Siti Aishah and Shawal was asking if to bring fahmi along with his bike. And I replied " Die Die." And both are like laughing their heads off. Seriously, I gave them the straight answer No.

Yay,today I bought something nice and delicate thing for him,his mum and his dad :)
But its not an Aussies' :( Add on, I couldnt imagine someone having fun and enjoy at Bali with..i dont know.

Saw Imran on TV news. Reaching 30 any sooner. Lol, he and his sports for life.

He is sick, I hope he had consume medication and he will get well soon. Rest well dear..

It was on Sunny Sunday afternoon and everyone is like ' Ikan Goreng'.
Ill upload more :D

"A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor. "

Love Aishah

Dari seseorang yang sangat mencintaimu...

2010-08-09T08:25:00.000-07:00

I miss ur smile sayang..

2010-07-26T08:28:00.000-07:00

sayang... I miss ur presence and I love u...

2010-07-18T06:56:00.000-07:00

2010-07-08T09:05:00.000-07:00

Well,I'd just received my MP. I learnt something. Its interesting,I can be like a mad scientist. I like that term. That is what Im searching for. My cousin gave me a PURE CHOCOLATE DESSERT from France. Gee. I couldnt help it but was indulging the Chocolate:)

' Work hard, Have a Perfect Knowlegde... -Kok Seng.

I still have do my draft MP proposal to show to Edwin tomorrow.

Miss u dear..g'nite :)

Love Aishah

MP

2010-07-08T08:44:00.000-07:00

Those photos were taken to commemorate cum Jo (coach) birthday at House of Sundanese, Suntec City with my Team :)

Love Aishah

Tuesday Night

2010-07-06T07:11:00.001-07:00

I wish I am his blog. where he can share all the happy or sad moments just with me.

Once its over,its over. I cant leave Spore with my conditions like this. Btw I have a happy news.I was selected as one of the torchbearer for Youth Olympic Games in August. Im not boasting or anything but...im surprised.My upcoming events are Netball Pesta Sukan and ICG like cross country run. Thanks to my families and friends for all their words or encouragement and supporting. At least I have them to cheer me up.

Aussie-Vic :) I know he is not happy if i keep talking about Aussie.

i miss u...
I hope u are always there for me..

Goodnight sweetheart

Love Aishah

Goodnight

2010-07-05T07:19:00.000-07:00

Tears running down my rosy cheeks when u didnt answer my call. I have cancelled my plan to buy an iPod touch and buying Britney Spears CDs :(

I hope my dad,my aunt and my love ones will recover soon.

I realise, there is no one to be blame. Whatever it is, I respect my parents' and my aunt advice. They want the best for us. Family comes first than Melbourne :( i need Zurich.

Well, I dont like when he said 'etc' or 'its ok'. I feel worried and I have no one close to share my problems with... I feel like a baby crying every night.

Goodnight dear.....

Love Aishah

2010-07-04T07:40:00.000-07:00

I dont like rambling about unnecessary problems. I know he wont reply me tonight :(

Love Aishah

I miss you so much it hurts

2010-06-27T02:49:00.000-07:00

Wahyu Hartanto: i'm tired.. ya Allah sadarkanlah dia..i love her more than anything.
Love u always 26 Jun 10,Sat

im very stress, anytime my head can explode. Germany vs England. well, i need to progress.

Love Aishah

2010-06-26T09:19:00.000-07:00

Well,if I have the opportunity, I dont mind staying Oversea. hee australia,nah.

As long as it doesnt bother me,just let it be....
And u are happy....
i hope u catched big fishes and take ur medicine. I hope ur neck will get better.ur blood pressure in good range.

Love aishah

2010-06-20T21:27:00.000-07:00

i miss u dear :)

singaore super series open 2010

2010-06-19T08:34:00.000-07:00

i posted twice today. I had tahlil at my relative's district. Then we went mustafa for a while to buy my aunt and my grandma stuffs.

Kak Ayu really look like a princess:)

I wanted the britney's perfume to be a surprise,but...:(gnite to u, dear :'(

Love...:(

Airport

2010-06-19T02:13:00.000-07:00

Waking up at 3pm today. Was very tired last night. My dad's cousin husband passed away after battling his illness. May Allah bless him afterlife.

After work, we went straight to airport yesterday. Bon Voyage to my cousin who recently just married. No SQ :( I saw singapore airlines in front of me!! Maybe it was taking off. I miss those days. Well..SQ, nice ..

i miss someone

Love Aishah

I Love U

2010-06-17T08:58:00.000-07:00

Selama ini sayang suka sekali dengan britney spears, sampai parfume pun senang dengan britneys parfume...dan finally saya dapatkan itu..

Di dunia ini tiada yang sempurna..but tiada hal yang tak bisa berubah.
Apa yang saya katakan sama sayang hanya karena saya mau sayang berubah...cos sayang terlalu spesial buat saya.
Tetapi kenapa sampai hati sayang tuduh saya dan suruh saya cari wanita lain????
" Ya Allah apapun aku rela lakukan buat 'dia' supaya dia bahagia"
Saya sangat rindu kamu sayang, cuma ini yang bisa saya lihat kalau saya sangat rindu sayang..

Love u always n forever
Wahyu...

2nd Day World Cup

2010-06-12T20:24:00.000-07:00

England vs USA 1-1. I cant wait for tonight's match against Serbia :)

Something is bothering me. Life can be boring and meaningless if you are all alone. Im grateful as I still have my family, friends and him. Well at least I have someone.
I dont go for lust.

Im sorry to have said of going Aussie. Well, alright maybe I shouldnt stay there :) I know that will make you happy dear :) If Im ready,I would love to go Indonesia.

I need strength to grow stronger each day. Im kinda jealous-not exactly,when seeing my current classmates girls are always close. I take this as a test from God. Lets look on the bright side:)

Im planning to go shopping,i have to and that was the instruction from my mum. :( Im tired and wanna stay home. But I cant say that to her.

I love Ana Ivanovic. Yay! 2 games to go then can relax.

I miss u dear :) Randoms photos. Kak's Ayu wedding.

Love Aishah

World Cup 2010

2010-06-11T11:17:00.000-07:00

South Africa vs Mexico: 1-1

When I looked at the photos, my heart aches. I......
I need to cry but I have to stay strong. I have a long way to go and im confused. I really need sometime to be alone without depending too much on you. Im stress but I need to stay cool. Im not going to bemoaning about past. I need time to think through. I just pray hopefully my good intentions ... Whenever I feel hurt,I need to go there. I miss my Koala,kangaroo... CHOCOLATES, fashion...

Ya Allah, please let me make good decisions and grant my wish. :) Let me stay positive and happy throughout :)

M. Ari Yuli Wahyu Hartanto is going fishing tomorrow with his friends.

Time flies pretty fast. I have to really think through instead of bemoaning. -again.

Siti Nurhaliza- Nian Di Hati & Dealova.

Love Aishah

10 JUN 10

2010-06-10T07:27:00.000-07:00

sayang..u dont know how much i really miss u. And I always worry about ur condition.

Last night I was feeling very down. We were on the phone for more than an hour. I feel bad letting him call me. But I know he needs me,me too :) He said something which makes me feel very sad. he wants to meet me even for 1 hour. the last time we met was 5 mths ago.

I just miss u dear...

Love Aishah

2010-06-09T07:27:00.000-07:00

Today the whole night im listening to Siti Nurhaliza song especially Dealova,Nian di hati. That song suits her better than Once. Her voice was great.

Today reach home at 7pm. 2 more matches to go. My back is aching now. I cant wait to go Melbourne (Australia), Basel (Swiss/Zurich), London. He travelled there and its a norm thing to him. Important is London, Im going to hug my survivor war veteran :)

Im having Internship attachment at Lonza Biologics Tuas.

A trip to Burj Khalifah (Dubai). My uncle spent S$ 300 to and fro with free flights from SIA :) Im considering Austria ( a beautiful HR lady came from, but living in Swiss,Zurich now)

Im serious about these. All i need now is work and study hard.

Love Aishah

2010-06-06T07:36:00.000-07:00

love Aishah

2010-06-06T07:29:00.000-07:00

Arrived Spore at 4pm. It was very sunny and I didnt apply any sun block lotion while in oversea. Can see the difference in my skin tone! Well, all-most of the netballers are tanned. I should have apply sun block.

2010-06-03T10:35:00.000-07:00

i love u

2010-05-22T15:25:00.000-07:00

I miss u so much and I wanna hug u very tight..

Love Aishah

....

2010-04-16T21:37:00.000-07:00

Wahyu Hartanto ya Allah saya sangat cinta dia..tapi apa saya sanggup terima seperti ini...saya akan berusaha sabar demi dia ya Allah..amin.
Friday,16 April 2010: 2306

Wahyu Hartanto i just want to be a good person for u... make ur smile n happy...i love u.

RESULTS

2010-03-11T23:08:00.000-08:00

I know what went wrong. Im going to meet Kok Seng next week.

"Hello New Year, goodbye past" 31 December 2009

Ringing in the new year also means letting go of the past. Best way to move forward from negative events in the previous year is to remind yourself they have already happened.

I need to surround myself with people who add to my life and learning from negative experiences instead of bemoaning them.

Feeling blue

2010-03-01T09:21:00.000-08:00

Ive been crying a lot lately. I dont know if my tears are because i miss him just too much, hurt..Well,im unsure about that. Tears are running down my rosy cheek. Enough is enough, I couldnt help it if u hurt me this way. If things meant to be kept silence,let it be.
Im running out of my tears now.

I need you...

Love Aishah

Chinese new Year

2010-02-14T09:11:00.000-08:00

Had my CDS test on friday. Finally I get over and done with it! Phew :)

I cannot resist my temptations to travel. They are at Paris, France now for 4-days . Isnt that cool?!!You are free to travel anywhere. Well, im craving for it!! Thats what I could think of. TRAVLELLING ...CHOCOLATES.. I dont celebrate Valentines's Day.

My brother bought an iPhone Cool! Im still considering to get a new phone. I need..not want,haha.

Its been really hot lately causing tanned and uneven skin tone.

My aim for tomorrow: Do squad for 20x:)

He went Yogyakarta doing some official things.Uh-oh my throat is itchy..I need lozenges!!

Love
Aishah

Bon Jovi

2010-02-05T02:02:00.000-08:00

Im listening right now to their song.Well, yea was very tired the whole day. Its all about my mindset.

Fadzilah and I went to have lunch just now at Swensen at Tampines Mall.

I have a lot of work to do especially building up my body, running tomorrow morning.haha!

Love

Aishah

Focus

2010-01-29T03:00:00.000-08:00

" Never take someone for granted.
Hold every person close to your heart
because you might wake up one day
and realised you've lost your diamond
while you were too busy collecting stones"

"When sailing thru life,
Don't avoid storm and rough water.."something like skillful sailor will face such challenges. That was brought up during apel lesson yesterday.

Love Aishah

Empty

2010-01-23T21:51:00.000-08:00

24 January 2010, Sunday
1345

I feel empty. I had my tuition and feeling sick today. He had futsal in the morning and is having lunch now. Abruptly ended our conversation. I never did that to him or had any intention. Spoilt my day.

Love Aishah

3 words for u...

2010-01-23T03:47:00.000-08:00

I miss u..

tomorrow at 0935, it will be exact 3 weeks since we last met.. I wish I could erase and rewind back the time.

Whenever I look at the clock I remember the time. Every minutes and seconds we had,are very precious.

Miss my netball training last thursday.

Love Aishah

Emptiness

2009-12-22T20:16:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, emptiness is killing me. Mama went back to her house and my sis accompany her. So I slept with mummy last night XD.My brothers were working and serving NS last night. Plans to have vacation to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia this holiday. Im undecided. I feel like staying at home. Im going to cut my hair later:) Next week is the biggest week for me. Ive been bad lately. Disturbing everyone around me. XD

"After our twenty-mile hike, we stopped at a little roadside restaurant. It may have been that they made the most delicious food in the world there, or it may have been that hunger was the best sauce"

"She kissed the tears of pain and disappointment away from her son's face."

Love
Aishah

Countdown

2009-12-16T08:07:00.000-08:00

Lets countdown to 2010. Just few photos to upload :)Tomorrow night training. Yay! Having school break now.

I know he loves his bike. And thats me^^ Oh right, I cant wait to cut my hair.

Love

Aishah

2009-11-26T04:13:00.000-08:00

Good news! No match and training tonight! Looking forward for holiday
Ya Allah, only to you I pray, and only you know.

Hari Raya Aidiladha falls on 27/November-Friday

Love
Aishah

Practice

2009-11-18T06:53:00.000-08:00

Stop..erm..being sensitive. Childish?Erm.. Girls will still be girls. Boy,get over it.

Salleh and his " arab world" :)

Miss you. Match tomorrow's night.

Love
Aishah

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Tuesday night

2009-11-17T05:20:00.000-08:00

Woke up late today and missed my subuh prayers. Last night had my training ended at 10pm. XD There is no time to wait!!!Sony cybershot for $299 with 8 GB and Macbook Air.. Cool gadgets. Creepy crawling spider.

Had CCN last friday and bought a tub of vanilla ice cream for 15 bucks :) Sushi? no more. Sashimi XD
Sleepover at my aunt place on last saturday..Right , i guess she not wanting to go,*hurt..just burn that voucher off.

Yay netball this Thursday!!Looking foward so much.

Love
Aishah

Studioworks

2009-11-10T02:43:00.000-08:00

Had my CDs test just now. Sorry,my mood isnt good these days, but Alhamdullilah, its getting better . Just be myself, a simple person :)

Love
Aishah

Apple Tea

2009-11-09T05:58:00.000-08:00

I don't know whats happening. Dear, I appreciate if you tell me earlier that u have plan to Makasar,sulawesi island?

Just now, online with Jun Hao. XD
I know!!!Now Im watching Ali Baba bujang lapok.

Love
Aishah

Stay Happy Always

2009-11-06T23:53:00.000-08:00

Yesterday met Siti Aishah at Tampines. We went to food culture, as usual ordered Tom Yum.When telling her what Im facing, she too said something similar. It open up my mind and I realised.

Love
Aishah

Problems.

2009-11-06T02:42:00.000-08:00

Vanished by Chris Niles.

Just deleted few blog entries. I tried to correct my previous blog entries. I don't understand why people behave this way. It hurts a lot but just take it easy. Everyone wants to be the best of the best. Misunderstanding is the correct word.

Zenith Alpha won last night match against Knights. Smile.It was drizzling but the game is still on. Must learn to be independent. Life has to move on and and be prepared to face the challenges out there. Im grown up, so take it easy. Dont stress myself :)

I will be myself.

Love Aishah

I have limitless potential, which is masked by unprecedented mistakes

Blood sucking

2009-09-20T20:50:00.000-07:00

*reminder-just be careful

2009

2009-08-05T10:09:00.000-07:00

Miss updating my blog

Love Aishah

AU-VIC (,")

2008-10-16T04:02:00.000-07:00

Just ended training.Should I join them too? I hate music blasting in my ears though.
I just remembered, I have something better to do.

AU-VIC
i like this!

2008-10-11T21:32:00.001-07:00

Tennis Fav

2008-10-08T22:52:00.000-07:00

I love Ana Ivanovic

2008-10-06T12:00:00.000-07:00

Hari Raya 2008=)

2008-10-05T08:58:00.000-07:00

Love Aishah

28 -9-2008 Sunday

2008-09-30T23:19:00.000-07:00

The nicest day. I couldn’t describe my feelings. I was just too happy. I met him first before going to airport. I couldn’t resist myself to bring along a map to get to my destination. I’m fear of being lost. I was kind of uncertain when I’m there. But it was nice spending my entire day. The world belonged to us on that day. ^^ hehehe *evil smile

I fell in love with the chocolates in the airport. He bought for me a big Toblerone chocolate. White Chocolate..Ahh Nice! My family loves it.

Looks like it going to rain. The cold air entered my body. I was very cold. Im freezing I should have bought a new sweater for myself. He lent me his’s.

And I saw my dear friend,Adlina working in Swensen.

"Nothing is as seductive as innocent."

Love Aishah

Practicing

2008-09-20T18:04:00.000-07:00

Im easily get carried away. Im put too much stress and pressure to myself. 7 Comprehensions, 4 essays to be done in 1 day? Nothing is impossible.

=)

2008-09-20T17:27:00.001-07:00

Composition: Entry 1

2008-09-16T10:20:00.000-07:00

Practice makes perfect.

Murder

A rumble of thunder rolled across the sky followed closely by deafening thunderclaps.The wind suddenly rose and the rain increased in intensity. Rafael was accused by his colleague, Andy, of embezzling the company's money. And now, he was trying to snatch a pass-key code from Andy to reveal the truth.

That night Rafael planned to break into Andy's house. Haplessly, some celebrations were held which prevented him to steal the pass-key code. The ring worn by Andy was engraved with the 24-digits pass-key code. Rafael knew he needed to get it.

Andy was a computer engineer at the Systemax security company. He knew how to access into the confidential files without leaving any traces behind. He even threatened to blackmail about Rafael's past. Rafael used to be a drug addict.

Feeling insured and intimidated by Andy's words and power, Rafael intended to revealed the truth where Andy was the one who embezzle the company's money.

The next night, Rafael tried to sneak into Andy's house again. The overpowering silence of the house area assured Rafael that Andy was asleep. His green eyes glowed viciously for any unlocked windows. None was at his sight. Using the tools he brought along that night, he tried to break into Andy's house by window.

Quietly making his way to Andy's room, Rafael wearing denim jackets and pants gave himself a sinister smile. He crept into Andy's room and found him laying flat on his stomach.

Swiftly Andy turned his back and found a man stood upon him. He shrieked in triumph.

"I need your ring. Give it to me," said Rafael in a clear penetrating voice and clenching his fist tighter.

" I won't give it to you. Get out of here before I call the police!"barked Andy as streams of perspiration outlined his trembling jaw.

Boiling blood shot through the veins and anger cloaked Rafael as he was impatient to get the ring.He took out a shiny dagger from his pockets and flashed it to his victim.

"Give me the pass-key or you might want to end your life now..,"said Rafael in a flat and husky voice.

"Never.." without giving Andy's a chance to complete his sentence Rafael swiftly planted the dagger right into chest without a flinch of guilt.

Vivid images of his actions flashed through his mind, tears welled up in his soft green eyes, forming a blanket over them. Rafael could not believe himself as a murder. He was instantly contrite.

Blood splattered everywhere on the matress. He could feel his own heart pounding as fine swear beaded his forehead.

In a flash, Rafael left the scene leaving behind the ring with the pass-key, untouched.

Ramadhan Month.

2008-09-03T23:15:00.000-07:00

Happy fasting to all Muslims.

Alhamdullilah, Im having school holidays during the fasting month. Yeah, stress-free.
Well, a lot of things are racing through my mind.
Sahur was peaceful. woke up 4.15am to give my dear a morning wake-up call.

I'd received my orange belt for my grading.

:)

2008-07-24T08:44:00.000-07:00

Love,

Happy 23rd Birthday!

2008-07-13T05:26:00.000-07:00

Happy 23rd Birthday, love
May Allah bless u always.
*hugs & kisses

Approved LOA

2008-07-03T20:22:00.000-07:00

My application to take the leave of absence is approved.